家

变变变
样样都在变
真的好怀念sem 1
虽然刚来到人生地不熟
感到陌生
但一两个星期后
节目就一直增加
没有减过










那是几乎每件事都很顺利
真的很开心
很喜欢那里
总觉得旧屋比较好
常常有朋友来带出去玩
我觉得在那里几乎天天都出门
回想回去
好像每天很多节目
在那儿
都过得很充实
节目不用自己安排
它自己会来的
那是只要随时准备好自己就可以
一通电话或简讯就马上走人
真喜欢这样的日子
那里不是同屋的叫出门
就是学长
或是学校的同学
那时还要牺牲周末
留在这里和朋友疯狂
不想回家
觉得回家浪费时间
没得和朋友玩










但自从搬家后
真的真的觉得一切都变了
疯狂的日子少了
outgoing 也少了
不知是不是这间家风水不好
internet 又超慢
又不能申请streamyx
因为没有电话线
在这里（新hostel)有时真的蛮寂寞
除了上网
没什么可以做了
还有就是课业+ 读书









sem 2 开始
就像一位朋友所说
已经中了homesick
几乎每个星期都回家
很少留在这里
现在反而觉得回家更高兴，更多乐趣
如她所说"不管发生什么事，他们都会欢迎你"
这一点我真的非常赞成.









刚才不爽的就是
一位同学说我常常回家浪费钱
每次去回都花费20
对她来说这样很浪费
如果你说我常常出去玩和购物浪费钱
我还可以接受
但说我常常回家浪费钱
这就不可以
回家有爸妈疼
有妈妈烹饪
不知有多开心
可以吃妈妈的拿手好菜
姐姐还羡慕我可以常常回家






如果他觉得回家那么浪费钱
那么她为什么每个星期回家
她妈每个星期来载她不用车油吗？
虽然她家在槟城
但也是满远的
都靠近大桥了
只是她不用出钱而已
有时真的想不通
她是怎样的！！！！

决择

不知道要做什么
此时
一直在看事情发生下去
不知要怎样阻止
不知要怎样让它停下
不知要如何喊停





如果喊停....
会出现怎样的后果
我不知道.....
真的不知道.......
没人可以帮我
只能靠自己
可是我真的不知所措
所以只能



船到桥头自然直
也许就让他顺其自然吧
反正我也不知要如何.....






不爱做选择
不喜欢做决定




烦烦烦！！！！

此时此刻

此时此刻
就是那么宁静
没有电视机的声音
没有妈妈和爸爸的谈话声
只有我与‘良伴’- laptop






真在享受着夜晚鸦雀无声的环境
一个人坐着
和音乐交响
没人打扰
真过瘾






也......可以.......
胡思乱想一番......
呵呵.....






胡思乱想有时是种乐趣
在宁静的情况下
想自己喜欢的东西....








真喜欢此时此刻的心情
虽然在宿舍也可以很宁静
不过感觉不一样






我还是比较喜欢
现在在家这种情况.....





只可惜不能再去那个公寓
真的很喜欢那件公寓
不过已不再属于我
再也没机会在那儿欣赏夜景
公寓的灯光也很好
真的很喜欢
好想回去那时候.....
那时还不是很大
所以没在那儿拍照留念
真是可惜






时光是不可能在倒流
那些我觉得美好的回忆
也只能在记忆，回想时看见.
可惜........

烦.....

最近总觉得样样事都不顺心
很烦......
不知何时开始
就常常被拒绝
差不多每一次问她们都拒绝我
真的有那么难吗？






如果是我， 我觉得我会很乐意
如果有人开口问我
但是要我有空就可以
如果没空当然也不行。





起初还蛮好的
每次都okay
只是我觉得最近她们都改了
常常送我一句“不方便”






我只是有个小小的要求
很过分吗？？？？
这样也不能成全我！！！！！！
每天都看到别人幸福
我也想要这种幸福
为什么我不可以拥有！！！！
为什么我要是不幸的那个！！！！！！
我要做幸福的那个·！！！！！！、





希望他们能回心转意
不要再拒绝我！！

因为我真的很累
每天做一样的事
现在也很累
现在好想有个人安慰
真的很累
每天要做一样的事
问一样的问题





真的真的很累。。。

Hanging out

Last week they cancel the movie watching at late night
say tat next day gt morning class
make me feel quite sad as i cenot hang out with them
thank god this week they fulfil the appointment
tat is have a movie watching at wednesday






I just dunno why
I just like to follow them
Although it is just watching movie n having lunch or dinner
I just like to stick with them
They give the feeling like so warm...
I just like to stick with them
When i was with them
watever place i go
i will feel happy, memorable







The sad thing is
i was nt part of their class
so i cenot join everything they organise
some is their class only
or they follow their time
This is the only thing tat make me sad







I like the noise make by them
I like the joke say by them
I like everything bout them
I JUST LIKE TO HANG OUT WITH U ALL
Hope tat in future stil wil have more chance to hang out with them.
I LOVE U ALL!!!!

trying to cheat n being spoted!

feel shy ...

who is this?

ooo... the truth is..

situation of playing poker  at mcd

everyone serious on playing..

Special day

22/10/2009
That day is thusday
like usual i was at school having class.
Before class start the sky aledi looks dark, lokks like is goin to rain
After i start my class it started to rain.






when i was having class suddenly i receive sms fr jennifer
she ask me wana hiking or nt.
after i saw it i was wondering for a short while
because i din hiki before n i dunno where they wan to hike
so i ask her where to hike.
but she din tell me the detail
just call me to prepare things tat was needed only.
after preparing my thing, 2gether we go to hav lunch.
Then we move to our destination.









I think this is the first time i hiking
Previous time i jus join jogathon or marathon only
but nt hiking
At the beginning when we start the hiking trip
i told myself that it is a concrete road, no worry

This is the beginning of hiking.

After walking to a c ertain distance

i just realise that concrete road is just part of it

Deep inside is really forest

We have to walk through many trees

We also can see small water fall along our path

the water is cooling

In the jungle, middle path of hiking

We took almost 1 n da half hour to finish our journey.

Our final destination is a beach.

After reaching there everyone of us play along the beach.

after playing along beach for a short while

a few of us not amnage to walk back to our original place

so we took a boat go bac.

Hostel

Haiz...
Am i too greedy?
Althought i already have internet here,
but the line is DAMN slow!!!!





At other place, i can one side PPS, one side facebook + msn
Here the line like .....
Only can do one thing at one time
but i wan do many thing at 1 times






I complaine to my sis bout this
She said it is quite good that i can online
rather than dun have.
I know.
but really inconvenient ma.
Sometimes i put my comp status sleep,
later when i wake it the internet already disconnect
Dunno wat to say.





Really a terrible hostel
After staying here for almost 2 month
I also think that the old hostel is better
Althought the big semi-d sometimes is quite scary
especially when u are alone in late night
or come back late from outside
u really wil feel scary when enter the house







Another bad thing bout my current hostel is water!
Flat really quite horrible cause here always no water.
I think the water supply is not enough.
Too many people live but the pipe is small or wat i also dunno
The worse thing is when u are bathing the water will suddenly stop
 I mean stop flowing fom the shower
Can u imagine when ur body are with shampoo n u dun have water to rinse it!









The older hostel will nt run out of water
yet there have phone cable
it is much more easy for us to apply internet compare here





The only good thing bout my current hostel is i have many friend live at here
This can be counted as the most lucky thing for me to live here.
Live under the same block is quite convenient
One of my classmate is jus as my neighbour
Can find her to discuss homework easily
Another 1 on the 17th floor
Really appreciate to have her as my friend
she teach me, tell me many thing i dunno
Is really a good thing to be her friend
And she maake me feel that i am lucky to have her as my friend.
The lady in 17th floor, whenever u need me u can find me
(but i feel i find her more than she find me ^-^)
I always available for u!!
but dun find me to do too difficult thing
U now i cannot make it!
hehe....
I can accompany u buy or eat dinner, play , hiking... also can la
N many more...

Internet

Internet Internet Internet
i need internet
damn my new hostel is flat
i hear other friend said is more difficult to have internet there.
i mean in flat







i realise that if no internet
i really wil die
no facebook, no drama, blog also cenot
haiz...






thank god my hometown can online
if not i think i wil nt come bac aledi
really hope that mu hostel can hav internet as soon as possible
wil die lo no internet!!!!

I WANT INTERNET!!!!!!!!!

突破

7/10/2009

这一天
可说是人生中的新尝试
那就是clubing







那天下午下完课后在回家当中遇到朋友
回到家没事做
觉得无聊所以就sms他是否有出去






他回我说可能有去clubing
问我要不要去
起初还在犹豫因为没有合适的衣服穿
二是对那个地方有点怕怕
但是在再三考虑后
还是答应了
答应后就去眠一眠
这样晚上才会有精神 hehe。。。






睡醒了
觉得有点肚子饿
吃了点东西
就到朋友房间聊天
看时间差不多时
就去冲凉做准备






本来一切准备妥当已经出门了
但是临时想到忘了一件事
忘了撒上香水
所以又跑回家





在等电梯的当儿
朋友到了
打电话给我
弄得我好紧张






去到那儿以为直接进去了
但朋友说要等其他人
所以就在外头坐着等
等的当儿也顺便观察四周的人






哪里近90% 的人一定上妆才来
而且都穿得美美的
但那天我也穿的不错la
不比他们差 xD





等着等着
突然看到熟悉的朋友 jennifer
真的好高心法看到她
原本还好奇为什么她没来
看到她真是万分高兴






聊了一会儿
她就说先带我进去看看
进了里面
里面暗暗和一点烟
音乐很大声 人也特别多
因为那天是 ladies night
刚进去有点不习惯环境
但一会儿就okay了






Jennifer 在里头认识很多人
再逛的当中一直和人打招呼
不久后朋友来了
就一起进来了







进去不久后
sexy ladies dance 就开始了
朋友鼓励 jennifer参加
因为奖金有RM800
在大家的鼓励下
她就参加了
比赛结果是以欢呼声取胜
当dj喊道jennifer的名字时
我们就很使劲的喊
最后不负众望
她赢了
真是替她高兴






休息片刻
他们就要上舞台跳舞
本来我不敢上
但他们硬硬要我去
所以就迎合他们






刚上舞台时不是很习惯
因为舞台上很挤，很多人
刚上去不知道要怎样
朋友就叫我勇敢的跳
不必害羞
在他们的鼓励下
我就和他们一起在台上摆动，跳舞





跳了一阵子
觉得又热又累
所以就出去休息






休息后又在进去疯狂
这次更疯狂了
也许这次我进入状况了
和一班朋友在台上热舞
真的很高兴
尤其是有男有女
更是一个字 爽x3





突然爱上了在舞台high的感觉
那种感觉从来没有过
希望还有机会尝试这中感觉

假期

时间飞逝
转眼间假期完了
新学期也开始了
下星期就是week 2 了
一大堆忙碌的日子陆续登场






假期真的过得好快
期待已久的sem break 就这样完了
但是这个假期我真的很高兴
假期一开始我就跟好友valerie回她的家乡- KL






在那儿当然是住她的家
第一次去她的家真高兴·
因为她的家算是我的dream house
那种半独立式的屋子
她的房间我也很喜欢
也许其他人会觉得她的家普通而已
但是对我而言
我就觉得很喜欢






她的家人对我很好
非常热情的招待我
感觉蛮幸福的
看她父母对她的方式
让我觉得
她是很幸福的女孩
父母非常的疼爱
可说是要风得风，要雨得雨






他妈知道我和她女儿一样都是购物狂
所以特地带我们去逛街
真是高兴
可以在吉隆坡购物
因为我真的很喜欢那里
那里大多数都可以找到我要的东西
只是资金有限 hehe。。。
所以也不能买太多






短短的五天过了
回到了自己的家
第三天就要开始工作
我的工作还好
做一天，休息两天
做三天总共有RM2xx
还不错啦
至少多了一点钱
可以买自己喜欢的东西
真是高兴






没工作在家
有时和妈妈出去
有一两次是死党约出去
假期也算过得丰富






本来还打算要和朋友去云顶
但基于一些原因
所以没去了






愉快的假期就这样结束了
新的学期开始了
希望自己可以更努力读书
同时也希望和朋友相处更愉快
同时又交到新朋友！
加油！kelly

Prom Night

Long time din come to update my blog
same reason busy + lazy
Another thing is i think i wil only update special event or things only
small small thing that happen in life i wil not write here
i will depend on my mood wat to write





This monday is quite happy
because i attend the prom night organised by my college
By the Student wellfare community






At first i was hesitate whether i want to attend or not
but finally i attend also because many of my friend go
so i just join them




When talking bout attending this type of function
ofcourse we have to put on nice make up and do nice hair.
this is sure for me
Luckily i have the make up voucher by Clinique
thanks Clinique for giving me such a natural make up
I really like it





I did not have the idea to set my hair
i just want to wash and blow it nicely only
but when my friend and i went to the saloon
she take the make up and hair package
but i dun wan cos i aledi have make up at clinique
at the end i also let the saloon to set my hair
quite expensive to me because it cos me RM 35
The 35 just last for 4 or 5 hours
But my friend and i are the same type
that or even can say that all girls are same
that is we willing to spend our money to make ourselves look beautiful
even is just for a few hours
That is girls
haha....





When we went there
we can see a lot people wearing nice evening gaun
First thing to do is of course taking picture wif all friend
then chit chat wif them




I enjoy the show arrange by them
Every contestant really have their own talent
really hope that myself would like them
The show was very interesting





Thanks to my friend ghee fan cos he call me go upstairs to watch the show
the view really better
compare to downstairs cos i sit quite behind
n my height are quite limited






Also thanks to chia ying
she became my driver take me to put make up and set my hair
of course she also set for her own
just thanks her for bringing me here and there
really appretiate





I heat from senior every year will have the prom night
so i hope that i wil able to join this damn fun event again next year
Wish me luck

me valerie and senior




senior name ghee fan and me




chia ying , valerie and me


My beautiful friends

惊喜

14/7/2009

前阵子真的很忙
所以没有时间来这里

认识我的朋友
应该都知道7月14号是什么日子
对我来说是重要的日子

对
那就是我的生日

每个人对生日
都有不同的回忆和经验

今年是我第一次在外面过生日
没有家人再身边
感觉有点陌生
因为以往除了家人
朋友都很少和我庆祝生日
只有我在帮他们庆祝

来到这里
真的希望会有改变
也许是上天听到我的心声
它实现了我心里想要的

果然在7月13号 12点
朋友突然关灯
然后拿着蛋糕帮我庆生

虽然没想象中那么感动
但真的很开心
因为没有过这种经验

到了7月14号

本来以为会在家过

因为常常带我出去的朋友有约了

还有几个我班的同学
我约她们出去
他们说没空

然后突然间跑来我家帮我庆生
这真的让我很意外

也真的很爱他们
虽然认识不是很久
但却愿意花钱帮我庆生
真是感动万分

但没想到的是

我家的男生
竟然说要带我出去
我本来以为他们只是说说而已
哪知他们是来真的

他们带我和valerie
她是我在这里最好的朋友
一起去海边玩水
玩到整身湿透

又要以最快的速度
整理好自己因为要去redbox k歌

去redbox吃自助餐
感觉真好
那里的自助餐很好吃
吃完就k歌

那天k歌k到凌晨
真的很不错了
那天真的很感谢上天
安排那么多朋友帮我庆生

果然让我过一个最快乐的18岁生日

谢谢你们

真是爱死你们了

7月14号 12点

在redbox k歌

班上的同学

问题

回想起来
前阵子应该是我人生之中最快乐的日子
阵阵两个月里
过的日子都蛮顺利的
即使有发生事情也不是大事
一下子就过去了








在这里过日子
几乎忘了什么是伤心
因为生活真的很自在
和朋友一起吃喝玩乐
没有父母的约束
只是有时会担心口袋
明白吗？









开心的日子一定不会长久
问题就在这时出现了






我和她可说是一见面就认识好久的人
相处下去更觉得我们一定可以成为好友
我们几乎做什么都一起
一起狂欢 一起逛街
一起和朋友去k歌
还有很多（迟点在写）







问题就在这时出现了
我现在住着的屋子要拆了
因为要建新的豪华房屋
所以就被逼搬去别处






当然如果要搬
我要搬回和我现在一样的屋子
本来她也赞同我






但当她听其他人说那里的屋子比较隐生
她又犹豫了
她就跟我表示不要
但如果住高楼她又不要
因为她有阴影
我也不是很喜欢高楼
因为我觉得进出会有危险








后来屋主来找我们
他要我们尽快做决定
因为他要开放房子给其他人







我们就在房子的事情上出争执
她要住高楼
但我要住排屋
因为空间比较大
而且比较安全
如果要分开住
我们又不想
因为不想再和陌生人一起住








在挣扎一番后
最后还是决定住高楼





但是事后我觉得我们的感情疏远了
也许是房子的事情吧
她变得好像不是很想和我讲话
去那里也没约我







就拿今天来讲好了
她本来要去redbox的
下午是问我要不要去
我说看先





但我睡午觉醒后
我就看他们已经准备好了
然后就出门了
也没跟我说些什么





真是心寒
心突然冷到了
为什么她可以变得这么快
为什么为了那么小的事要抛弃我
冷落我






还有很多说不出的话
不写了真希望我们还能像以前一样
在一起

LOSER

换了新的环境
当然会有所期待
期待已久的东西也出现了
正在进行取得东西的过程






几个星期里
事情都进行得不错
一切都进行得很好，很顺利
一切都在掌控之中






还和东西去逛街
那次之后还没什么
东西还好好







几天后
事情突然变了
东西不知为何变了
变冷了






去查探事情的真相
原来第二个买家出现了
早就知道它的存在
不过觉得他能力没那么好
没什么担心






继续查探
终于得到结果
结果是
第二个买家赢了






又再一次
我变成LOSER





为什么是我？？？？
我不想做败家
我不要做b q






心觉得好像又被割了一刀。。。。

Beyond school's life

Living outside is really interesting
i love the freedom
usually when i was at my hometown
not much place can go
my mum also din let me go out so often
my friend also not that type of ppl who like to hang out
so less chance to hang out outside till midnight
sometimes..






But college life is really different from skol
learning way is different
Ppl around u is different
They are all new
At first when u first meet u find that they r good n friendly
Later when times become longer
Thety wil noe that which is good to u, which is not





Here is almost like a working society
U wil see many different kind of ppl
not like in secondary skol
characteristic r not the same
they r more"deep" than ppl in secondary skol
they r complicated ppl
U really dunno wat they think, wat they wil do to u next minute







Many thing happen to me
my belonging disappear
bla... bla... bla...
My friend done somethin to me
which i dun wan to speak out here
Dont trust ppl easily
i hope that i really can change this cos if i din change it
at the end i am the only one who wil get hurt deeply
i really hope that i can protect myself well
Dun let my heart hurt again
It is really painful
i already suffer from this quite sometimes
Really hope that my heart's "firewall" wil be stronger to defend all these


Really........

outside Life

College

In the college say the truth i quite enjoy the study life
but one thing everybody sure dun like de is assignment n test
especially me
other i dunno how they think






Best thing study in college is no uniform
u can wear what u wan
firstly i stil think it is good
but fter that no so
bcos everyday u have to think have to wear wat to skol
not like previous time
everyday the same uniform
no need figure bout it








After few week i was quite friendly wif all classmate
can mixed wif all of them
really so happy






But this happy moment does not last long
i already forgot that i had submit a letter to the office to change my tutorial
class
i did not cancel it earlier
it is too late for me to regret
i really love my class m9
they r so funny
especially guy name sam weng chern
he is really a interesting guy
kinda easy o regconise him cos his hair is "special"
not to say is ugly it is really special
Now just can see him in lecture class
kinda sad





Today i go to my changed tutorial class
not as interesting as my m 9 class
really miss my m9
the ppl there not so interesting
they din always sound out
just be quiet doin their work
just talkin to each other
not makin fun wif teacher
or wif all classmate





Bcos of someone i change my class
that time i really want same class wif her,study wif her
but now she is nobody to me
just i think can be my schoolmate
but she is now my classmate
really really regret i change my thing bcos of her
this is the first time n the last time
i will not change my class easily next time
regarding to someone
no one in m9 change class except me
everybody moved in m9
really think that i m the most STUPID person
i always wil be that person
doin blur thing
study in m9 makes me feel that it is fun study in college



i already get the best but i dunno
when i discover it, it is too late
people always like that
i think....

College Life

Hello!!!

I think not much people like to see my blog
because i did not update it oftenly
i was quite lazy to write blog say the truth
but sometimes just want to write
so just post it


Time flies
i m already in college for almost one month
said the truth
is quite enjoy the life here
bcos u noe
mum is not around
u can go where u like
haha......








i am that kind of person
who like to hang out, shopping,watching movie
go here go there
cannot just sit at home do my work
if i not mistaken i think
last last week the whole week every night i did not stay at home
today go out eat then go pasar malam
another night go gsc watch movie








Last week also go out quite often
when talk bout last week make me feel scary
my friend want watch horror movie but i and another girl dun wan
then he try to tell us that actually that is not horror
it is a funny movie
well at the end we also agree to watch that movie







after the movie start
we know that he try to lie us to watch the movie
"Drag Me To Hell"
cos is really scary
that movie talk bout evil thing
really scary to me
especially the sound effect
gosh
next time cannot be too naive to think that that kind of movie is funny









After movie we go pub to have some drink there
i tried the cocktail there
is quite nice cos i first time try it
usually ijust have some wine if at home
my friend call classic wisky
it is not that nice as we see in the drama or movie
the taste is quite weird






Ofcourse people always go out
money also wil follow u out
haha...
Dont u think so?

你最近还好吗

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话

地址写的是心底

你能不能收到它

天有点冷 风有点大

城市宁静而喧哗

这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗


没有你每到夜里回声变得好大

有没有什么好方法

让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发




有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

旧情人给的问候

比陌生人还尴尬

昨天远了 明天还长

回忆模糊但巨大

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗






没有你每到夜里回声变得好大

有没有什么好方法

让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发







你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发

orientation in TARC

好久没有上来这里了

也没有看朋友的部落格

因为这整个星期都过得很充实

事关这整个星期我都在槟城TARC 的 orientation week

刚开始听到orientation week 的时候

有点害怕

因为通常这样的日子

都是senior玩junior 的日子

而且这次事孤身作战

没有朋友或家人在身边

深处在异地

当然会害怕

在家呆了一段日子

突然又要回到现实中

回到上课的日子

有点不习惯

第一天到college报道

感觉真是又紧张又害怕

因为看到的人都是陌生的

报道后就进礼堂听briefing

听完后他们把新生分成40组

我分配在第38组

过后就跟student leader 到我们orientation week 用的房间

进去后 student leader叫我们用特别的方式自我介绍

介绍完后他们要volunteer 来当junior leader

没人举手说要

他们叫全部学生一人喊一个号码

抽幸运奖就没有那么准

我就变成了assistant leader

在我人生当中

我从来都不会当leader

通常只有别人当 leader 我 follow

当了我也不知如何是好

不过如果命运这样安排

我就接收

当了五天的 leader

心想这也是不错的安排

因为当 leader 大家都会认识你

我自问都不是那些会引人注目的人

如果没当 leader

大家都不会注意到我

所以是件好事

在这次的orientation

我竟然做了我平常不会做的事

那就是演戏

当然只是短剧而已

尝试后觉

得原来演戏真的可以很开心

尤其是在练习的当中

真的超好笑

尤其是大家演错或说错时更好笑

Semi-final 的短剧我们只练习到11pm

没想到就真的进了决赛

但这不代表我们不好

而是大家都很尽力的演

所以才有机会进决赛

进了真的不可以马虎

决赛前一天

我们练习到1am

虽然很迟了

但是一点都不觉得累

而且这是我第一次这样做

真的超开心

这次的orientation真的没话讲

真的太棒了

交到很多朋友

又可以学到很多东西

拥有许多新尝试和经验

真的后悔没多拍照片来留念

I really really happy this week

This is all my team member

My friend

My Cute Senior

他们的金牌动作
“爱的乌龟”

我的可爱学长